life is what happens to you while you’re busy worrying
L’s dad’s condition is taking a turn for the worse. it would just be an incessant jabberwock on cancer, dying, and ponderings on life that’s why i didn’t update this blog and made myself scarce for over a month. socrates and the dalai lama have been keeping me company, and i talk to them in my head and they give me some solace. they’re pretty consistent; i like consistent. i thought i had been disensitized 8 years after ate E died, hindi pala. di na talaga maaalis sa psyche ko ang bwisit na cancer na yan. bwisit talaga.
vertigo
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the other day, i opened our class discussion with this question: “if you were to choose between cancer and alzheimer’s, which would you choose?” the manangs - all 9 of them - collectively answerd: “CANCER!” i guess there is nothing more frightening than losing your mind (in the form of that dreadful disease. i mean, having, let say, schizophrenia, is also frightening but you are still left with a teeny weeny bit of capability to manage things for/by yourself that you don’t become totally dependent on the person or persons who would take care of you) , ain’t it? dun na lang din ako sa cancer.
the answers to the ‘WHY” that followed were really interesting and very helpful, at least to me. and sort of balanced things out a little.
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i’m borderline anemic and i had 2 mild attacks of vertigo (dahil sa fatigue na rin siguro) in the 2 weeks that passed. the doctor said i have to have some meat in my diet or he will make me take mega doses of iron supplement for a certain period of time. i chose the latter. but i also increased to the max my intake of green and leafy veggies. spinach and pechay everyday. i’m turning green, baby!
miss monay
the goddess of pisngi (when she was a toddler) hihihi loko lang. go to my flickr to see her little brother, the god of wealth.
a 180 year-old thatched-roof japanese house. now a museum. very very minimalist and zen. i vant to live here and roll around on those tatami mats.