maximine and minerva’s owl

September 30, 2004

Of men and cats

Filed under: general — atinna @ 8:57 am

Biking to the nearest grocery this morning to get some provisions, this was on my way:  a stray calico cat
disoriented
by hunger wandering
on a pile of putrid
leaves of camellias;
ten meters away
a man in his 60s ….
sameness.

I reckon there’s homelessness in every part of the world even in rich countries and Japan is no exception. I had lived in New York and Los Angeles for several years before I moved to Tokyo and I had also witnessed the same thing but it’s different in Japan. Homeless men wandering in the parks and sometimes streets don’t panhandle; there are some who would gladly accept if you gave them some spare change, and there are also those who would feel insulted and curse you and tell you to go to hell. While others are genuinely wallowing in total destitution, some are not, sometimes they just seem to have lost their bearings for a while and the capacity to keep up with the world, and only longing to find a little temporary mental release from reality - and that is by wandering the streets.

September 24, 2004

me Zen mode

Filed under: general — admin @ 1:48 am


Yes I’ve been in the Zen mode lately; after attending a series of his forums and lectures at Sophia University and some other places, my mind seems to be in a state of semi nirvana. He talked mostly about death, life, compassion, existence, ethics, and most things in terms of philosophy of the mind. Very illuminating and I’m glad I signed up even if the fee was a real kill, it was all worth it.

I sometimes bring up the topic of death to my students (high school seniors) but they always manage to avoid it. I’m not sure if it is because they detect instantaneous boredom or it is a collective fear of the subject matter. The concept of death has nothing about morbidity, this I’ve been trying to tell my students but they’re still not convinced. But now I know what to do and thanks to that lecture series.

“If you are aware that death can come any moment, then it is important to bear in mind that it is a part of life, and in remembering death then you become more ethical”

“The best time to prepare for death is not when you’re dying because it may be too late. It is better to do it when you’re happy and peaceful and more introspective”

IMPERMANENCE — the changes that keep life alive; it teaches us to let go of our attachment and perversion. It makes us realize the basis of ethical living and the real meaning of happiness. If there is absence of hatred and malice in your heart then you are a happy person.

COMPASSION — is to see others as we see ourselves in a particular unfavorable situation ie. suffering, helplessness, pain , extreme desperation, etc. Try to look at the person as another you.

- Sogyal Rinpoche

September 23, 2004

Finding Light and Inner Peace

Filed under: general — admin @ 9:17 am

A Buddhist Temple in Nagatoro Chichibu, Japan
copyright: photo by Atinna 9/19/2004


Inner Peace Posted by Hello

Chinese Good Luck Tantra Totem

Filed under: general — admin @ 8:45 am

You may not believe in this but the advice is great!Read all the way down, you might learn something!!!

ONE. Give people more than they expect and do it cheerfully.

TWO. Marry a man/woman you love to talk to. As you get older, their conversational skills will be as important as any other.

THREE. Don’t believe all you hear, spend all you have or sleep all you want.

FOUR. When you say, “I love you”, mean it.

FIVE. When you say, “I’m sorry”, look the person in the eye.

SIX. Be engaged at least six months before you get married.

SEVEN. Believe in love at first sight.

EIGHT. Never laugh at anyone’s dreams. People who don’t have dreams don’t have much.

NINE. Love deeply and passionately. You might get hurt but it’s the only way to live life completely.

TEN. In disagreements, fight fairly. Please No name calling.

ELEVEN. Don’t judge people by their relatives.

TWELVE. Talk slowly but think quickly.

THIRTEEN. When someone asks you a question you don’t want to answer, smile and ask, “Why do you want to know?”

FOURTEEN. Remember that great love and greatachievements involve great risk.

FIFTEEN. Say “bless you” when you hear someone sneeze.

SIXTEEN. When you lose, don’t lose the lesson.

SEVENTEEN. Remember the three R’s:Respect for self; Respect for others; Responsibility for all your actions.

EIGHTEEN. Don’t let a little dispute injure a great friendship.

NINETEEN. When you realize you’ve made a mistake,take immediate steps to correct it.

TWENTY. Smile when picking up the phone.The caller will hear it in your voice.

TWENTY ONE. Spend some time alone.

September 22, 2004

Do you hate your boss?

Filed under: general — admin @ 8:58 am

Here’s a little joke for you.

A man is walking on the beach when he trips over a lamp. A few seconds later a genie pops out and says, “I’m required to grant you three wishes but since you didn’t treat my lamp with respect I will give twice what you get to the person you hate the most: your boss.” The man agrees and makes his first wish: “I want lots of money.” Instantly $20 million appears on the beach, and $40 million appears in his boss’ bank account. Next the man asks for an incredible sports car. Instantly a Lamborghini appears, and at the same moment, two show up on his boss’ driveway. Finally the genie says, “You have but one wish left; you should wish wisely.” The man says, “Well, I’ve always wanted to donate a kidney.”

September 19, 2004

What’s the title of this song?

Filed under: general — admin @ 9:44 pm

Does anybody know the title and the name of the singer of this song?:

Let’s go into the mountain
Let’s leave all behind
I’ll take my flute and play for you
I know that you are mine.

Let’s go into the mountain
La lal la la…..

I’ve searched the internet and numerous song lyrics books but I couldn’t find it. Manila FM stations used to play it then, back in the early to mid-eighties, and I would always hear it but I never got to know the title or the name of the singer. It’s a beautiful song with unpretentious lyrics and melody sung by a female singer with a crystal clear voice.

unsent unworded thoughts

Filed under: general — admin @ 3:04 am

am sorry about the harsh words i didn’t know what came over me

a very bad thought i guess…., a flashback and the sound

of you (us) being so complacent and arrogant

the truth is i had meant it for me and just made you

a sounding board or mayhap i love you too much

i just can’t deal with it anymore.

September 17, 2004

Filed under: general — admin @ 3:00 am


Tenchan Posted by Hello

September 12, 2004

Saved by the ANGELS (karugtong)

Filed under: general — admin @ 1:13 pm

PROLOGUE

Ang Coimbra ay isang lumang siyudad sa bandang norte ng Portugal- sabi ng nanay ko ay taga rito daw ang mga ninuno niya at kailangang makarating din kami dito kung kakayanin para makita ko ito at masamyo ang hangin ng lugar na pinagmulan ng kalahati ng dugong dumadaloy sa aking mga ugat (hoo-ha!). Maraming lumang simbahan sa Coimbra, maliliit na parang mga chapel lang pero malalaki ang hardin at maraming estatwa ng anghel na nakakalat sa loob at labas nito. Halos luma lahat ang mga anghel at ang iba ay putul-putol na ang mga kamay at pakpak. May isa kaming chapel na pinuntahan, napakaganda ng hardin nito, maraming mga bulaklak at gumagaray na halaman sa pader; sa bandang sulok ay may fountain na may nakatayong babaeng anghel. Medyo sira-sira na rin ang kanyang pakpak dahil di maipagkakailang luma na at matagal na siyang nakatayo sa sulok na iyon, pero ang kanyang mga mata ay parang buhay. Ewan ko ba pero pag may estatwa kasi ng anghel akong nakita ay ang mga mata nito ang una kong tinitingnan (ganoon din ako sa mga nakikilalang tao). “Look at her eyes honey, they’re alive!”, ang sabi din ni Luigi ng makita niya ito. “I know, I feel as if she’s following us with her eyes”, ang sagot ko naman. Medyo natakot nga rin ako dahil kakaiba talaga kaya ang ginawa ko ay hinimas ko ang kanyang pakpak at mukha sabay bulong ng: “please be our guide and watch over us”, pumitas ako ng isang bulaklak at inilagay ko sa kamay nya. Tapos ay umalis na kami.

Isa na namang simbahan ang aming pinuntahan, medyo may kalakihan ang simbahang ito, luma rin at puro stained glass ang design ng mga pintuan at dingding. Nagsindi ako ng kandila sa may altar, sa dingding niyon ay may nakahilerang gawa sa stained glass na mga anghel na parang ginagwardyahan ang isang santo o ang santo papa na nakasuot ng bilog na pince-nez. At dahil mahilig din ako sa stained glass di ko napigil na hawakan at i-trace sa aking mga daliri ang linya at texture ng mga ito, ang ganda-ganda kasi lalo pa at tinatagusan ng liwanag ng papalubog ng araw. Isa sa mga anghel na ito ay parang nahahawig kay Luigi. Sabi ko, “Hey Poopsie, he looks like you”, sagot naman nya, “No, I’m more handsome” sabay tawa.

May isa pang pangyayayring nai-uugnay ko rito: isang linggo bago kami umalis ng New York ay namili kami ng mga dapat dalhin para sa aming paglalakbay. Mahilig ang asawa ko sa antique kung kayat madalas din kami sa mga flea markets at swap meet. Nagkataon nung araw na iyon ay may malaking flea market sa Kew Gardens sa Queens kaya nag-drive kami dito para tumingin ng mabibili. Sa isang pwesto ay may malaking mesa at dito ay may naka display na mga antique na laruan, mga manikang mukhang bruha at mangkukulam, mga payaso na nakakatakot tumingin, may mga vintage doll houses at tea cups na gawa pa during the 1800’s at kung anu-ano pang samut-sari. Pero sa pinakagitna nilang lahat ay isang maliit na anghel na gawa sa goma at plastic, nakapikit at nagdarasal or perhaps wishing fervently (see photo). For some reason doon napako ang aking tingin, kinuha ko ito, may tag price na 1$ binayaran ko at umalis na kami. Dala dala ko ito sa bag ko nung nag backpacking kami, nung nakasakay na kami sa eroplano pabalik sa New York from Madrid ay kinuha ko ito sa bag ko at hawak-hawak ko habang paakyat na ang eroplano. Pagtingin ko sa ilalim nito ay nakasulat ‘made in Portugal’. Magmula noon ay hindi na kami nagkahiwalay pa, lagi ko siyang dala kahit saan man ako magpunta. Pinangalanan ko siyang Tenchan (angel=tenshi in Japanese, the chan is a title meaning ‘little Miss” - a diminutive form), ito rin ang user name ng blog na ito.

Karugtong…

Luigi turned around to look but, yes, they were gone. My husband, though the sweetest and the most caring person I know, is the king of skeptics and a paragon of rationality, to him there is a logical explanation for everything. Having studied Physics and having been exposed to war and violence (this during his war photography years in Central America and Bosnia) have made him extremely rational and cautious. Mayhap his being atheist(and buddhist(?) his father is Japanese) is also a contributing factor. But that incident in Madrid has changed him a great deal; he had suggested that we collect angels and we did and we have been collecting them. We now have about 300+ angels in our possession.

Though he didn’t see the wings he said there was nothing left but to believe me (and no, I’m not a very religious person either; I grew up catholic because my parents are solid but my belief had changed along the way at some point. I had had a few sessions in a mosque, a Tibetan Buddhist temple, and for a year had frequented a Seventh Day Adventist church but nothing was substantially ingrained in me. I do believe, however, that there is one God that governs us all) because he was at a loss for a logical explanation and couldn’t rationalize how the two suddenly appeared behind us when we were running for our dear life in that underpass.

There are a lot of angels around us, with wings and without. Being kind even how little act it may be, or tolerant, or patient, or forgiving (and giving), is being an angel. There is ‘angel’ in all of us, within us, in someway or another. You may not agree but that methinks . Ito naman ay sa akin lang.

September 8, 2004

Saved by the ANGELS at Plaza de Colon, Madrid

Filed under: general — atinna @ 1:12 am
This is a story about angels (yes, the winged ones) and my encounter with two.

The year was 1996, as a respite from two straight years of bending over backwards in grad school, I decided to go backpacking in Europe for three months, starting in Greece hopping on its scattered islands and then going northwest up to the pristine beaches and elegant ruins of cathedrals and castles in Portugal. I was with Luigi (my hubby) who then was just my boyfriend; we travelled by every conceivable form of transportation: by ship, ferry, bus, rented car, on foot, moped, mule (in Morocco),we even hitchhiked on pick-up and 8 wheeler trucks, etc. It had been a very pleasant trip and there was nary an occurence of any trouble or mishap in the course of that three months of constant wandering and wonderement.

The last leg of our trip was Madrid after which where we were to catch our flight back to New York which was at 6:30 in the morning, which means we had to be at the airport at approx 4 a.m. or 2 hours or so before departure. Madrid’s Barajas International Airport was only 20 minutes by cab from our hotel so we assumed it would be a brisk getting there, but we were wrong. What we were wrong about was our assumption that hailing a cab would be easy at 3 o’clock in the morning (we were staying in a youth hostel so don’t expect there would be cabs queueing outside ready for us anytime we wish for one). We had no choice but to take the subway that would take us to the airport bus station at Plaza Cristobal de Colon, and from there catch the limousine bus that runs to and from the airport.

From the outside of the subway station to the Plaza was only about 7 minutes walk but it would certainly take us longer with the amount of baggage that we were hauling- 15 kilos backpack each on us, my husband’s camera bag slung on his shoulder (hubby is a photojournalist and he always carries all his equipment in a huge camera bag, another15 -20 kilos), 3 enormous paper bags full of souvenirs, clothes, a new pair of Spanish leather boots, an alabaster bust of Socrates that weighed about 4 kilos, and about 5 ltrs. of Nenuco Cologne. Very heavy indeed. So, we got off the subway, climbed the stairs up exiting towards an avenue that we had to cross in order to gain access to an underpass that would connect us to another passage to the bus station which was located at the basement of the Plaza. It was dark but the street was not empty of vehicles and there were very few people around. While crossing, I noticed a white car, small and dilapidated and in it 4 men all in their early 20’s or probably late teens; it was in a halt and the people in it were looking at us while we were walking.

We got to the underpass, it was deserted (wee hour of the morning that’s why), about 100 meters in distance to the entrance to the basement of Plaza de Colon, filthy and reeky and the walls were smothered with graffiti. We were already halfway through it when I heard foot steps and Spanish words which I couldn’t make sense out of, the men had followed us; I turned my head back and saw that they were already by the steps and running towards us. We sensed trouble so we hurried and ran as fast as we could, I was running while looking back and being on-guard (hubby was carrying a heavier load so it was very difficult for him to turn his head back)because judging from their looks I knew they were running after us with the intention of robbing (and maybe hurting) us, and they were getting closer. So I concentrated on my running for a while but suddenly it was silence and I couldn’t hear anymore footsteps, just ours.

I looked back again and saw a man and a woman (young, both in their 20’s) walking casually behind us about 5 meters apart, in the meantime, the men had discontinued chasing us and retreated back. Although it scared the living daylights out of me I tried to think how did the two behind us suddenly get there; they weren’t in the underpass when we got there and they certainly didn’t look like part of that group of young men in the car. I was very sure they weren’t there because I didn’t see them coming behind us as we were in very close proximity. They both looked like normal people, I mean not homeless who might have just been hiding in one of the piles of huge garbage that were all over the place,and, who had suddenly decided to get up and shield us from danger. I managed to look at their faces too. The man had brown wavy hair with very fragile features, aquiline nose and deep set eyes with a soft gaze. He was also wearing round eyeglasses, like John Lennon’s. The woman had long frizzy hair, also brown but lighter than the man’s. She was of the same height as me (165 cm.) but kinda stocky for a woman, pretty but had a rather stern face; they were talking to each other as they walk, more of soft murmurs than clearly defined talk. I particularly noticed her gray Jurilla shirt because I had one that was almost identical.

We finally reached the end of the underpass, and there, was the entrance to the bus station. Safety at last. There were many people waiting, cab drivers sitting in their parked cars, security guards, and other backpackers. I looked towards the direction of the man and the woman once again and saw them climbing the stairs that lead to the outside street, my husband looked too and even mustered a coy “ciao” (instead of “adios”)and proceeded to the entrance; they didn’t seem to hear it and continued their ascent. At that point I was still trembling and panting but I couldn’t take my eyes off them. And for one split moment I saw WINGS, yes wings!! big and white and fluffy wings slowly moving up. In great disbelief I said, “My God they have wings!” My husband heard me and turned around to look …..

To be continued.

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